can't wait to change room.

today, my roomate posted something on fb. and c.l.e.a.r.l.y he was condemned me. unstated my name but who else if not me and abg arip when he wrote 'roomate'? im not angry or sad, but i felt ochen guilty. coz i can imagine how was his life being messed by me, coz he rarely post on fb, but this time his post is about sejengkal long and all words capitalized. see how angry he was at that time and i can imagine how annoying he feels to me. and i admit i was the cause but i have my reason for doing that. as if i depend on him, he did fumble-ly, but when i depend on other thing he feels messy. but sokay, he's older than me so i respect him. and im just menumpang je on that floor.

i am bad roomate for him, but with others i hope not. :)))

aishh, suddenly i feel cant wait for next study year, coz i decided to stay with somebody else. with abg arip or my batchmate as long as not him inshaallah. alone is better if can. :) be patience uba, there is 5 months left.

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i wish he knows how my pride fell because of that public comment. i hope he delete it.

**************update 210213****
perhaps i should let everyone knows before becoming my roomate, that:
1) i hate cold (my feet could easily caught cold)
2) since long ago, i always hav dificulty to wake up, and sleep as well :p
3) i tidy up my room/desk not everyday but about once a week so dont expect a tidy room. hihi

support israel instead of palestine? it's.not.funny.k?

recently, in kitchen (of my floor), my seniors (mostly chinese) were talking about israel and palestine. i listened to their words attentively while cooking. somehow it was a little bit funny coz they related everything to israel. but suddenly there was a question directed for an older senior there and the answer STUNNED me.

"***, which one u support, israel or palestine?"
"israel"
"why?"
"coz i think israel has their right to defend their country."

WHATTTTT THEEEEEE???????!!!!!!!!

as if he was not a senior, i would say "kau buta isu semasa ea?". if you ask me why we shouldn't support israel, i dont know what to answer, coz its common sense you know plus im not a man of words. but can't you see?? its everywhere okay,, in facebook, blog, tumblr, twitter, paper, tv etc. everywhere is talking about this thing. but why still be an ignorance? hey, ur heart is blinded. thats it why!

and read this *at least*;

source

got it? cant you see something? yess something.

i think i think too much.

okay, now i wanna change this blog's title. so here is the new title, an overthinker. the idea came out of a sudden so dont ask me why? and i think that word best to describe me now. maybe the title of this blog should be something best to describe me, even bad thing coz it can be a reminder for me. moreover, i've deleted my first blog,, so yeah,,maybe this blog may be my main blog now. but that deleted blog still undeleted completely within 3 months so who knows i might undelete it back HAHAHA but i will lose all my followers there *which is better for me*. actually i still havent receive any answer yet  *from my istkhrh prayers* regarding which is better--> delete that blog or not. hehe.

just an imagination

and ya know, imo overthinking was the cause of everything.

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no need to seek for attention k.

regarding the complains in facebook,,maybe its ok if they were posted to reduce stress. but few days ago, my groupmate when i asked her why dislike facebook? her answer was facebook is for attention seekers. hahaha. yesss i agreed! (in some cases). but its not valid for everyone, it depends on what they post in facebook. if its regarding knowledges, maybe they do want to share. moreover, facebook is among the mediums to keep in touch with friends, relatives and family.

adoi,, what i wanted to say actually? anyway, since that, i keep telling myself, do you seek for attention? coz lately i had something to post in fb, a lot, but i was hesitated and canceled *luckily*. and i admit even for me sometime its annoying to see somebody with this kind of attitude especially the so-called very humble but actually very great, and the ones that keep posting about EVERY single small things they do daily.

Depressed? seek allah.

source

so uba, do not seek for attention. ok? you hate popularity isnt it? keep it.

again i repeat,
"facebook is for attention seeker." haha
*in some cases.

if you medical student study relax-ly, your patient die early

yesterday my senior said to me, if you medical student study relax-ly, your patient die early. hahaha his words mean a lot to me. it gave me some spirit to study and most important, suddenly i felt very2 lucky to study here. hehe. anyway in facebook especially, i see some of my friends always complaining about their lecturers and uni's system (here). so if i relate my senior's saying to their complains, it means sokay if you have to struggle hard now, coz inshaallah the future will be easier for you.

eventho the world seems unfair to you, i always say to myself---> allah Al-Adl (The Most Just). so there must be a reason. and maybe there is one thing you forgot uba. grateful.

and study.

yeah, they aren't for ya. #fact.

so sad so sad so sad :((( what happened to you? is it my fault? oh how im so sorry for you my bestfriend! my camera! it cant take a picture, even cannot operate anymore. ya allah. please, it's all i have as my loyal companion. i bring it everywhere i go. i like it very much. why is this always happens to me? as i consider someone/something as my bestfren or even godgifted fren,, then they'd leave me eventually. what a fail for me.

taken by delayne's camera. model: my besfren

i think i should accept the fact that,,im not deserve for any so-called titles friendship or even love. eventho Your love ya allah,, im not deserve it. im juz an ignorance who hopes for miracles in his life.

but allah,, pleasseeee? i really need him.:(((((( oh my sony, please stay in my life,,,

how i suppose to tell my parents. :( so i hav to fix it asap but i did everything. what else??

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that decisions.

recently i've made some BIGGEST mistake that could effects my ENTIRE LIFE! i thought the decisions were best to reduce my distress but they didnt. maybe i made the decisions when i was sad and in depress. now, face the consequences FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.! serve you right, admit it, it was your fault.

that decision, how i wish i could go to the past, and mend it.

your life is ruined, ok?

visiting mamayev in foggy day.

today i felt very depressed. feeling sick i cant sit in my room anymore. so after prayers, i directly changed my order and went out of that hostel without exact purpose. but then i decided to walk around in mamayev kurgan to run away from the mess. eventho the temperature was -6 that time, but the feeling of being alone always makes me feel so close to Him, which had warmed me apart of being замёрз. luckily i brought my loyal friend, my camera! so, i took a lot of photos there.

so, the jalan2 began.

halfway to the peak of mamayev.

i walked thru the path surrounded by snowy trees. subhanallah so beautiful.

someone put it there. but u can see this flower everywhere here.

at almost top of mamayev hill.

mamayev surrounded by fogs. on that peak, i shouted as loud as i can. ihihi what a relief

this is how i reach to and fro mamayev.

bokeh 1

bokeh 2

bokeh 3

say NO to wine/alcohol. it is haram coz the cons much more worse than its pro.

i spent hours there. when i got back, it was almost dark. i saw a lot of wine bottle, huhu. even scarier one drank guy shouted something at me, but i didnt understand and buat bodo je. alhamdulillah nothing bad happened to me. and thanks allah, i felt so close to You by that time walking around that mamayev hill. i knew i was not alone. *dat feeling~ :)

soon not-coming novel :)

this is how i wasted my time here, trying for something new for nothing but minat editting punya pasal.

anyway, thinking about writing a novel?
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NO!