things i failed to/ won't say in reality

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

yeah, they aren't for ya. #fact.

so sad so sad so sad :((( what happened to you? is it my fault? oh how im so sorry for you my bestfriend! my camera! it cant take a picture, even cannot operate anymore. ya allah. please, it's all i have as my loyal companion. i bring it everywhere i go. i like it very much. why is this always happens to me? as i consider someone/something as my bestfren or even godgifted fren,, then they'd leave me eventually. what a fail for me.

taken by delayne's camera. model: my besfren

i think i should accept the fact that,,im not deserve for any so-called titles friendship or even love. eventho Your love ya allah,, im not deserve it. im juz an ignorance who hopes for miracles in his life.

but allah,, pleasseeee? i really need him.:(((((( oh my sony, please stay in my life,,,

how i suppose to tell my parents. :( so i hav to fix it asap but i did everything. what else??

Monday, February 11, 2013

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Sunday, February 10, 2013

that decisions.

recently i've made some BIGGEST mistake that could effects my ENTIRE LIFE! i thought the decisions were best to reduce my distress but they didnt. maybe i made the decisions when i was sad and in depress. now, face the consequences FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.! serve you right, admit it, it was your fault.

that decision, how i wish i could go to the past, and mend it.

your life is ruined, ok?

Thursday, February 7, 2013

visiting mamayev in foggy day.

today i felt very depressed. feeling sick i cant sit in my room anymore. so after prayers, i directly changed my order and went out of that hostel without exact purpose. but then i decided to walk around in mamayev kurgan to run away from the mess. eventho the temperature was -6 that time, but the feeling of being alone always makes me feel so close to Him, which had warmed me apart of being замёрз. luckily i brought my loyal friend, my camera! so, i took a lot of photos there.

so, the jalan2 began.

halfway to the peak of mamayev.

i walked thru the path surrounded by snowy trees. subhanallah so beautiful.

someone put it there. but u can see this flower everywhere here.

at almost top of mamayev hill.

mamayev surrounded by fogs. on that peak, i shouted as loud as i can. ihihi what a relief

this is how i reach to and fro mamayev.

bokeh 1

bokeh 2

bokeh 3

say NO to wine/alcohol. it is haram coz the cons much more worse than its pro.

i spent hours there. when i got back, it was almost dark. i saw a lot of wine bottle, huhu. even scarier one drank guy shouted something at me, but i didnt understand and buat bodo je. alhamdulillah nothing bad happened to me. and thanks allah, i felt so close to You by that time walking around that mamayev hill. i knew i was not alone. *dat feeling~ :)